(This is a loose translation from the video below.)

We all have a perception of what a midlife crisis is, and contrary to popular belief it’s not a mental illness,
nor does it need to be treated with drugs.
Most of us reach a time in our lives when we begin to sense that everything that we have trusted in and believed is total bullshit; school, politicians, news, media, religion, even our parents.
Deep down we sense that there must be something more, so we freak out and do something drastic to kick-start our lives. We may buy something expensive or quit our job and travel or go off to live in an ashram in some remote corner of the world.

Whichever way your personal “crisis” manifests itself you can rest assured that society will shame you for your “crazy” behavior. Most people are not going to accept that you are merely going through a personal awakening. So, what are
you going to do? Are you going to let others determine how you should live your life?

“You’ve changed!  You’re not the same person I used to know.”
Trust me; if somebody is accusing you of changing, then you’re doing something right! AND KEEP DOING IT despite the criticism!!!
I know people that have been the same for 40 years, and it's sad. Don't be that person. You have unique talents and gifts, so follow your path no matter how crazy it might appear to other people. It's okay to grow beyond the expectations and desires of your family, of your friends, of your social circles, of the life that you built for yourself based on your previous programming...
and make no mistake, every single one of us has been programmed into a cult-ure of trauma.  Even the
people with so-called “perfect lives” have been traumatized; they’re just better at hiding it.

Break free and discover who you are without the distractions, projections, and distorted desires of
others. You are here to live YOUR soul’s purpose and no one else's.
Those closest to you will either support you or fall away and yes, the falling away hurts like hell but you will survive the pain.
Discovering yourself requires courage, and it often leads to isolation, loneliness and even getting your ass kicked sometimes, but each trial conquered brings with it renewed strength and wisdom and if anyone would shame you or withhold love, buh-bye!
Thank the universe for showing you their true colors and then cut loose anything or anyone that is not serving you or your journey. God will not punish you. Quite the opposite. The angels are cheering for you so don’t let them down.

It is our birthright to find out WHO AND WHAT WE REALLY ARE!!!  Never let anyone shame you out of your journey of self discovery!
Anyone who wants to keep you in a box just isn't someone who will help bring out your greatest you!

Many of us lost in circles of loved ones never get a chance to discover our greatest you!
It's okay!  None of us know...that's what life is about and WHY we shall not allow anyone in our lives that would want to hold us in our prisons of programming we've been inundated with.
Those that love you will water your seeds and nourish the soil around you...

This may be a crisis for them finding out that their loved one is not the same person anymore, but did the butterfly complain after his birth to freedom???

Neither will you!

Now go forth and be yourself!  The life you save may be your own!  :)

Blessings and Love,
Christie Aphrodite

#phrodiedhere #coffeewithchristie #wombanityawakens #midlifecrisis

Self Love is a phrase we've been hearing a lot lately, but what does it actually mean?
How do you know if you love yourself?  Are there different levels or awakenings to self love?

The first 3 videos in this series detail my journey coming in to self love after a lifetime of programmed self hate and finding out what it really means by experiencing what it definitely is not.  I thought about transcribing these videos for the blog, but I'm afraid it won't be possible due to my rambling nature, so you will just have to listen to the videos.  :)

Could society be promoting a narcissistic view of what self love looks like?  What about the selfie mania craze?  Self Hate?  Dependence?  Overindulgence?  Sloth?  Greed?  Envy?  Artificial Emotions?  Artificial Dis-ease???

I address all these questions and more in the following playlist...

Would someone who loves them self stay in a dead end relationship?
Would we keep jobs that assault our soul?
Would we tolerate abuse from others or abuse ourselves?

Do we treat ourselves as well as we treat our car?

It's really simple when you think about it.  We always go the extra mile to put the right fluids in our vehicles...brake fluid, oil, tranny fluid, power steering, wiper fluid, bearing good, etc...but are you putting the proper fuels in YOUR sacred vehicle???

This is just one of the many signs of self love.

I address some of the follies in my own journey as well as our addiction to pain and blame vs responsibility.

I share my story in hopes that others will find that they can also make it too.  There was a time I thought I couldn't make it.  Then I did.  And so will you!

Part 1 - My Self Love Journey

Part 2 - Addiction to Pain

Part 3 - Blame VS Responsibility

Thank you for choosing to spend your time here with me and hearing me share my journey.  I hope this helps you on your journey to REAL FREEDOM AND LOVE!

To see the rest of the playlist click here! :)

Blessings and Love,
Christie Aphrodite

#phrodiedhere #coffeewithchristie #wombanityawakens #selflovehealsall

*(Every single word in this blog has been used against me by so called masters, gurus, healers that you follow...)


A self proclaimed teacher, guru, master, etc using terms like "conscious venting" does so because they are separating themselves from you. What they are saying is their venting is good, acceptable, loving, conscious...and yours is not...
They may even be so bold as to accuse you of blaming, whining, criticizing, bitching, call you a heartless battle ax, accuse you of being unloving, judgmental, "wanting to fight," uncaring and even go so far as to say that you've always been "this way" because you aren't "doing the work" and you never have...so you should just go kill yourself because you're so stupid you will just never get it.
They are always right about everything and you are always wrong.
Folks, this is gaslighting 101.
If YOU are human, there is something wrong with you, but when THEY do it, they are showing you the only way, the "holy" way, the "god-approved" way...the only things you are allowed to talk about, the only people or situations you are allowed to be hurt by or Angry with....ultimately getting you to doubt yourself and take on the shaming they have implanted you or attacked you with.
If you disagree with them, or just plain weren't even asking for their unsolicited "advice" or corrections, they now accuse you of attacking them...because you "want to be right, rather than loved."
They are projecting on you even though they will accuse you of doing the projecting simply by telling them no, setting boundaries for yourself, etc...
Don't fall for it!
They will tell you how wrong you are and "have always been about everything" in your life, but they are just trying to "help you because they want to be loved." Lol
No, (sarcasm) they aren't abusing, shaming, gaslighting you...they are just trying to "love" you...and "you're so wrong you're just incapable of loving anyone"
Folks, these subtle mind traps are going on all around you! What's good for them is not good for you and you will know about it! And be punished for stepping out of line!
They will blur the lines between right and wrong, good and evil and try to get you to think there is no wrong...of course that's a handy tool when they are doing wrong by you!
So they use nlp and subtly get you to curb your own instincts...because "you know, ego is bad"...and what this does is get you to retard/subdue your own built in, god given instincts alerting you to the danger you are under!
The only people that would ever try to convince you there is no difference is the ones capable of doing wrong/evil. They will say things like, "the belief in evil is relative to the level of your ignorance." So now they shame you again, get you to doubt yourself and put up with the abuse...blaming and hating yourself for not being able to get over the pains life sometimes throws.
To ignore that is to ignore life. To shame someone for being human is the ultimate tool of the dark side. Yes, there IS a dark side. And they have convinced you to love it as they are sucking the life force out of you!
Remember, parasites can ONLY feed off the good, clean, pure light filled non parasites! There is nothing to suck out of a fellow parasite. YOU are their food!
The next time they try to program you not to fellowship with other fellow hurting beings, consider that they might not want you to be with your tribe so you don't recognize these tactics, then find you under the spell, attack of the same harmful "teachings." And then it continues...
Be ware the "teachers" the ones that have all the answers while they cleverly avoid the questions that could point out who they are...
Be ware the "perfect people," the ones that never have a bad day, never experience normal human feelings like anger, sadness, grief...
Be ware the ones selling you "truth." They might share some truths like, "get real to heal" you must "feel to heal"...but then if you do anywhere around them, or even their facebook sphere, they freak out on you, then gaslight you some more and act like you attacked them...lol
They will tell you how little you are for feeling Suppressed pain, and how an evolved person wouldn't have to.
They will try to convince you to meditate it all away, and that complacency, willful ignorance is going to save the world.
Folks, you already know organized religion has been used as a tool to control you...why would the new age religion be any different?
Yup... I'm sure you've seen these tactics. Don't be slow like me and ignore them for years...wondering if im being "judgmental" because judging is "wrong."
Yeah, well, I was right. I was right all along. My intuition was always right, but I doubted it as I was being inundated with the fake love and light, ascension ,spiritual mamby pamby, how to make good clones, luciferian teachings that have permeated every school of thought there is...

LOVE, REAL LOVE, REAL IMPERFECT LOVE,
Christie Aphrodite

#phrodiedhere